BW - glad to see things are loking up for you - you seem much more positive than you did a couple of weeks ago, which is awesome. I'm glad your tummy has settled down a bit now.
Milly, WOW - that's a MASSIVE offer - and so very generous - and even if you don't take her up, it's amazing that a friend thinks so much of you that she'd offer something like that to help you fulfil your dreams - you're obviously a very special person! My SIL has offered on more than once to carry a baby for us if need be to help us to fulfil our dream - but she had traumatic births and a couple of m/c's herself - and i couldn't accept the offer cos i know how guilty she would feel if something went wrong - but it's amazingly touching that she cares that much.
Mako - it's understandable that you have fears of losing another precious angel - we're all at higher risk of something not turning out right - and as much as knowing a plan of attack for treatment can be very positive, i've also found it really difficult - i think it's brought to the front of my mind even more what risks there are - and it's scaring the bejesus out of me!
as for me, i've been deliberately MIA for a couple of days - after my massive vent last week about work, i decided that i needed to reassess where i was at - and the only way to do that was to take a few days out to find out where i wanted things to go. i put in an official complaint about a number of issues at work yesterday - after working on it for over a week - one manager had taken it updon herself to discuss my TTC issues with another staff member (a friend of mine) and i decided that was the last straw. i had to wait a week to put in the complaint to make sure it wasn't "inappropriate" in what i wrote - i was FUMING. after getting that out of the way, i've been able to refocus my priorities - DH and i had a big talk the other night and decided that work was only a job - TTC is about our future, and no matter what happens, this takes priorities - you can always get another job, but you don't always have the opportunity to have a family - and we don't want to miss that opportunity - DH has agreed that, if work continue to be painful about the whole thing, then he'll go back to his previous employer (thankfully, they ring him every couple of weeks cos his work ethic is amazing and they really want him back), where he can earn more in a week than we both earn in a fortnight - might take a bit more planning for IUI or (if it happens) IVF, but at least we know we have that safety net to fall back on - my stress levels are now about a quarter of what they were last week (and i can't shake that stress - still trying to renovate and the whole TTC thing!)
oh yeah - had BT this morning - waiting on a call this afternoon to let me know if it's time to start on the nasal spray - it's been a VERY long day - i'm really not patient - i just want to know whether to get the script or not!!!
ok, enough waffling for me - DH and my big bro are outside trying to put together a gate - and from the comments coming in through the window, i think they might nieed some assistance/supervision!
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