Hi Nae Nae and Susan,

Thanks for your advice, I think I'll need to do as you say as I thought I was doing OK. In the support group that I go to all the girls said that they were dreading xmas, and I thought at that time, oh I'll be OK....Well it's a lot harder than I thought but my partner Alan just loves xmas so I'll make an effort for his sake.
I think seeing the palnt bloom at your little angel Niki's memorial garden is so lovely, it's like she's saying 'Hello !'.

Susan, I'm so sorry for the loss of your son Brendan. I think it's awful when your own family avoids talking about what's happened. Like Nae Nae said sometimes people don't know what to say or are afraid to start a conversation about a baby/child that passed away, but in my case I talk about Joshua often, and it forces poeple to acknowledge him and then they don't feel so uncomfortable because I started the convesation. It's just such a shame that I always have to start it first....

All my love
Beata xx