Couple of questions, mostly a rambly vent.

[forshelby]

You don't have to pretend everything is fine. If you want to scream and cry, do that. It's only natural. Allow yourself to feel however the hell you need to feel.

One step at a time is how I've always overcome a loss and healed. You never really forget it, or 'get over' it, but the spirit does overcome, in time. My best advice is to take things as they come. Feel things as you feel them, understand why - and then file it. You might want to get that 'file' out later on and think about it some more and cry about it some more then file it again. Healing is a slow and gradual process, but it does happen. In time.

A loss at 4 weeks should see the worst (physical) part over shortly, but like I said, the emotional part takes time. Be gentle with yourself and don't rush the process. You did NOTHING to cause this. I promise this is not your fault. I can't explain why you, why your baby - just that nature is cruel, and sometimes we're blessed briefly only to be left grief stricken.

And remember, we're all here with you to hold your hand through the hard times. My heart aches for your loss. Sending you strength and love to see you through.