Thanx Mel you are a lifesaver. I'm doing ok emotionally, in fact I feel kinda guilty sometimes coz I don't feel that I am grieving as strongly over speckle as much as I did with Alex. I do know that I still have got time for it to hit me like a ton of bricks as we deal with the PM results & speckle's cremation. But there are almost times when I feel totally at peace with what happened to speckle & can talk & think about him/her without bursting into tears at the drop of a hat. Part of me feels so bad that I seem to be able to do this this time around.

Oh well I guess we just keep putting one foot in front of the other & take each day as it comes for the time being.