Good luck for this afternoon hun, I am thinking of you and remember you don't have to talk to them about it if you don't want to, they are only there to listen if you want to talk. Talk to whoever you feel right talking to, even talking to a close friend (like Mel) can do you the world of good, not all professionals are ideal in every circumstance.

Don't feel guilty about not grieving, not everyone grieves and not everyone grieves immediately. You will deal with this all eventually and in your own way.

Huge to you.