Thanks guys for your reply...its always good to hear other people's story and knowing you are not alone...particularly the one with happy ending ...

Cece, it was my very first pregnancy as well, so it was particularly painful...good on you for starting on another stim cycle, let me know how you go...as my next step would be the same, I will have to do another stim cycle. Would be good to compare notes...

Bec, you know you are always an inspiration for me for your courage and the best part is you got what you want at the end...At the moment, focus on future is exactly what I am doing right now, it is much easier than being depressed...I have a plan to exercise my body back into shape and resume all my sports, so I am in best shape to do the next stim cycle...wish me luck!