BW, I am glad you posted here...as I have been reading your post in the other thread about your appointment and to be honest haven't figured out what to post yet, because that gets me thinking a lot as well...about mental state, about whether you are ready for the next cycle...

To me, the way to deal with it is trying not to think too far down the line, one morning I tempted a little - imagining what it would be like if I see the second line again, it is absolutely terrifying. Since then, I withdrawed down that path, thinking it will be a long road to get there (stim cycle) anyway, I'd better focus getting on with the journey and will cross that bridge when I come to it...who knows how long it will take to get me pregnant again...but at the same time, I can totally understand that your FS wanting to get your mental state into shape before attempting the next cycle (although I agreed with other girls, he could put it in a more empathy way)...

So as confused as you are ATM, I think I take this 'waiting for AF' period as a blessing, maybe it will all work it out itself in the end!