Hope - It's so surreal isn't it, to be outwardly getting on with the mundane daily tasks, all the while knowing your beautiful baby is slipping away? I have had 4 natural mc's and one d&c, but I couldn't tell you which one is easier. With the d&c it was nice to finally stop bleeding and know that it was physically behind me, but to go from being 'full' to empty within a few hours is devastating. And then of course, feeling it all happen, being confronted with it every time to you go to the loo, is devastating as well.

I don't have any advice about going on with life. It's hard. Then after a little while you realise you've gone a few minutes or an hour or two without thinking about it. Then you'll start smiling and laughing without feeling guilty. The heart wounds start to scar over - still there, but not open and raw anymore.

I'm so sorry

Diamond Girl - I don't know what to say, except sending . What an awful ordeal, I'm so sorry.

Minniemouse - I know what it's like to sit there in a group and wonder why they can't hear your mind screaming, I'm sorry you went through that My last mc happened a few days before we stayed a a friends place for the weekend. I was still feeling very fragile, but we went anyway as a distraction. As soon as we walked in, one of my girlfriends came up to me and announced that she was pregnant. Not just pregnant, but we were 4 days apart Professor and I ended up staying at a little chalet a few streets away, didn't stay for the housewarming party, pretty much just up and left. I swear my mind snapped when she told me, I just couldn't believe it. She ended up losing her bub as well, a few weeks later, and I felt so awful because of the things I'd thought about her and her baby. It's made us better friends though, so something good came from all the crappiness I guess

AFM, I'm just my normal anxious self today. Work finishes at the end of the month, and while that'll open up a whole new can of worms financially, it'll also be good to not be telling myself off for not going to work. I was supposed to go in today but Professor didn't wake me up in time, and I had a bit of a panic attack about it last night anyway. It certainly takes my mind off of mc's.

Telly - I downloaded an app called MyFitnessPal, which is a food and exercise diary, so you can track your calories and food breakdowns. I've found it AWESOME! Especially with the PCOS, I thought I was eating pretty well, but I've actually found that while I may be eating healthy, I'm having too many carbs and not enough protein, which is not a good breakdown for PCOS symptoms. There's a website for it as well if you don't have an iPhone; I would highly recommend it, as it's good to learn about your food breakdowns, and it's also stopped me from having some junk food coz I don't wanna admit to it when it comes to filling out my diary!

to everyone