Hugs TS - I was very numb after my angel babies left, I remember clearly being in the shower the night before my d&c (1st m/c, 2nd pregnancy) & letting out this howl of pain that was so deep & loud but was also utterly silent. I say just sit with yourself, let your thoughts wonder & know that sometimes life just sucks. I hope one day you have a sticky baby that brings you all the joy that your life is missing at this time. Xxx