oh I'm so sorry Tinkle Stein.

No advice but just my experience - if this doesn't fit with you just ignore it - I had a mc at 10 weeks, spontaneous abortion. It stopped growing at 6 weeks.

I'm a lot better now but still emotionally a bit touchy. What I wanted to say is, it felt weird when my body felt pregnant but I wasn't. Swollen boobs, hormones still preggers, beaut skin. That was after I'd lost the baby.

We haven't tried again (for other reasons as well as mc) yet but I felt SO much better after my first period. I'd ovulated, had a period which felt cleansing, my hormones were back to normal again. JFYI.

The loss affects me in strange ways still. Find it hard to congratulate friends when they become pregnant, get choked up when ppl ask if I have kids (can't really say, oh I tried but it didn't work!).

I've just come to the conclusion that having babies is like Russian roulette! I just don't have any control over whether a pregnancy is successful or not, besides taking care of myself.

Hope that you can find support and grieve, we had a ceremony to say goodbye, which was a huge relief, to say goodbye to a baby that we wanted so much.