I just wanted to pop in and recognize that today was my angels EDD. Reading through my posts, it seems like a lifetime ago that I felt that way. I knew today was coming up ofcorse but I really had no idea how I was going to feel when it arrived. I mentioned to DP what today is and he said "oh well, we've got Henry now" - he's due in 9 weeks and ofcorse I am thrilled but he certainly doesnt replace our lost one. I still miss the first, wonder who he/she was and wish we had a chance to meet. I think DP just meant for me to not dwell on what we cannot change and focus instead on the joy that we do have. Its a weird day.
I received confirmation today (at 9w2d) that my pregnancy was to be no more. I have spent the entire day being really angry.
I dont know how to cope with what i'm feeling and everyone else is trying to get me to look on the bright side. ie, at least i know i can fall pregnant (this being the first time) it doesn't make me feel any better at all....
i'm at a total loss...i want to be alone but not alone, if that makes any sense.
my little angel left me over a week ago but i have had no cramping and no bleeding...i dont even know what to do, who to talk to or where to go.
I'm sorry we all had to meet under these circumstance.
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