Hi Kristy, It saddens me to read about Harrison. Although no-one ever knows exactly how another is feeling, to a certain degree I do understand. I also lost my Nicholas on 05/09/2006 at 36 weeks and 1 day, and I am also new to this site today. We are probably feeling very similar things right now (I have posted my story on this site titled "our little angel"). This was also my first pregnancy. This has only just happened for you but its 6 weeks down the track for me and although it seems like a lifetime ago it also seems like yesterday he was still kicking around inside. I still have my good and bad days and can cry at the drop of a hat, but a couple of weeks ago I forced myself to go back to work which helped cause its has given me a reason to get out of bed each morning, although everyone is different. My partner and I are now trying to get pregnant again, and I think it will be a very hard pregnancy, probably the longest 9 months of my life but I feel like its something I need to do and feel that if I can have a healthy little baby at the end it will be worth all of the stress. I think its the only thing that can even begin to ease my pain. When you do see your obstetrician, no matter what they say to you just do what is right in your heart cause only you know you whereas they know statistics. I am going through the same thoughts as you in regards to another baby, but I honestly think Harrison and his twin would just want you guys to be happy and if that means trying again then that is what they would want. That's what I keep trying to tell myself anyway. I also keep telling myself that surely everything will be ok this time because I have my little angel to watch over me, and you have your two little angels to watch over you.

Mel

P.S. I have found that talking to people has been the main thing that has kept me going, I have had a lot of support and if it will help you even in the slightest to talk to someone please feel free to email me: lilleymel@aol.com