Hi fellow BBers

Mel, Thanks so much me for offering me your personal email address. That is such a kind gesture from you during such a difficult time. I am going to send you an email tomorrow after a good nights sleep and probably yet another good cry.

Sarah your advice about my ill-fated trip was very sweet. I was really down on myself but I realise that I am probably pushing myself. I have been feeling a little less emotional this afternoon. I suspect this is only temporary, but I am trying to focus on the good things that will come out of this experience although I don't quite know what they are yet. I guess meeting all the wonderful women on BB (if only in cyberspace) is a wonderful gift.

I can tell my DH is feeling the stress of all of this. He has been so very supportive and so strong throughout all of this that I think I need to pay some attention to him. When I finally got moving this morning, I saw that he had been into the nursery and opened the windows and curtains. That meant so very much to me because he hasn't done that before. I think that we are going to try going to the movies tonight. I know this is a massive step but my DH doesn't want to leave me alone at all and he is slowing going crazy cooped up in this house.. As of tomorrow it has been two weeks at home apart from the memorial service and collecting Harrison's ashes although it feels like a lifetime. My DH said that he doesn't care if we buy the movie tickets and then I decide that I want to leave, that he is proud of me for just trying.

Dearest KAB, it is inspirational to hear that someone who has sufferred such a loss of a dear little baby girl can offer such encouragment. You must be very brave and I keep reading your post and the posts of other ladies to help me realise that this isn't a bad dream that I am going to wake up from. Thank you, you will never really know how much this means to me.

I will be back tomorrow for sure. Thank you to all of you for helping me get through this pain.

Sweet dreams.
Kristy xxooxx