thanks kimbaz.

its so hard my son was so tiny only 25 centimetres long although he didnt look it, i always thought labour was terribly painful, but with jesse it was the most painful, i knew he wasnt going to cry or kick his little legs, all i have now is a few photos and some foot and hand prints, i know thats more than a lot of mothers but hell im greedy i want my son, a friend of mine had a baby at 24 weeks and today he is a healthy one year old im so jealous im angry at my partner who is currently snuggled in bed drowning his pain in sleeping tablets, we're supost to be there for one another, god i feel so angry and confused and lost im so glad i found this forum even if ya'll dont read it i can still vent it somewhere,