Bella
I am so very sorry to hear of the loss of your beloved angel Jesse.
It is true that you can still visit Jesse and talk with him... my DH and I talk with Noah and buy him things... it is almost a year since we lost him... and we're planning to buy him an Angel day present for the day he was born.
It does get easier... though the pain is still always there, it is just less suffocating. I hope you and your DH can get through this together... perhaps you and your DH should look at getting some counselling... I know it has helped many other people in similar situations.
My heart and thoughts are with you.
Lisa