Bella, I am so sorry to hear about Jesse :hugs:

I do hope you find the support you need here on BB, in all honesty I don't know what I would have done without these women - they have picked me up when I no one else could. You do need to talk about it - as much and as often as you like - it's been 4 months for me and my son still consumes practically every thought and conversation I have.

You and Jesse are in my thoughts, take care of yourself.

Mel