Oh Goldilocks, i'm so terribly sorry to hear of your pain. The tears are running down my cheeks as i read this and it has made me realise that we don't live our lives how we should and that we work to live...... I know that you probably won't feel it now, but it will get easier....and the support you have from DH is absolutely amazing. I had the same sort of support from my DH, but i only learnt not long ago, that he was in as much pain and heartbreak as i was, but didn't want to show it as he thought he had to protect me....

Talk it through with your DH. He loves you more than anything else in this world and as you both go through this together, your bond will be deepened even further. This is the one good thing i have taken from my m/c.....that my DH and I have a bond that is so deep, that it can never be broken.

My heart goes out to you at this time and i hope and pray that when you start TTC again, that you will become pg once again and hold a little bubba in your arms...

If you need to talk at all, don't hesitate to PM me.....and if i could reach down through the computer, i'd give you a great big hug...