if i read the words "silly" or "selfish" again in regard to this, i'm gonna have to hunt you down in tomorrows 43 degree heat, and wrap you in the biggest squishiest hug EVER as punishment

you know what - it doesn't matter how planned or unplanned a pregnancy it - it freakin HURTS to lose it, and anyone that tells you that you're wrong to feel that pain has absolutely NFI how much it hurts! you can't just lock those feelings away, you cant pretend it didn't happen

for 36 or 48 hours you knew in your heart that you were going to be a mum again. it wasn't the timing you expected, but it wasn't bad news - just unplanned! in that time, you had an amazing capacity to love that little embryo open up within you - and when that angel was stolen from you, that part of your heart was ripped out.

your friend - well, they're either insensitive, have no idea of what you're going through - or have a serious case of foot in mouth disease. the reality is, this WILL hurt. you can try to pretend it doesn't, but all you're doing is lying to yourself

LET YOURSELF FEEL this - if you dont, it's going to screw with you for a damn long time - you'll go through moments of self doubt (what did i do to make this happen), guilt (i wasn't ready for baby, i must have done something) and then extreme guilt for denying your angel the love and respect it deserves. trust me - i did this with one of my angels - i refused to grieve for a long time - i didn't know i was pg, so why should i feel any pain. i ended up really messed up until i allowed myself to access the emotions regarding that angels loss

thinking of you (and please don't make me hunt you down - it's gonna be DAMN hot and i don't wanna!)

BG