DET - I had my tubes removed when I had my c/s with Mateauz..my back if super knacked and my uterous is thin and scared PLUS I have 2 kids with disabilities that need alot of attention .... I also dont get any family help and all my friends live interstate or 100km's away from me so to be honest another child would probably be the straw that breaks the camels back for me...but yet I still miss it.

Smiles...oh you so hit the nail on the head. we need to have a drink together and a cry lol

ange your MIL what the???? WTF!!! I hope to god im over it by that stage.

Ive had alot of time to think about htis last night while je dlay next to me snoring his way to mars . I missed out on so much with Mateauz being so sick in the first few months and having to do months and months of physio, doctors appointments and the sress of him living or not just sort of took the first months away from me. I think I blacked out that part of his life and now find myself yearning it and wanting to regain that time.

I love NB's...yet I find it hard to hold someone else's. Its yummy and comforting to an extent yet when you know its not your own it sadden's me. I find myself giving the baby back to their mum after 5 mins becuase it just plays on my heart strings to much

Ah centimental old cow I am ...blah