I am approaching agony stage in the baby-need at the moment. DD is nearly 3 and as it's as if something's just snapped - my body is screaming that it's time for another baby. But we have to hold off a bit for a variety of reasons. It must be so much harder when you can't have another

Maz some women are just MEANT to mother. And i think you're one of them. I know this doesn't help with the physical side (that carrying and birthing another baby can't be done by you i mean) but you're obviously supposed to be around and/or to do with babies hun! Have you considered early-weeks-doula-ing? So many doula's in the UK only offer help for the first 2 weeks after birth, i would pesonally really value a doula who, like you, is an experienced mum who could come in for the first few months and help me get to grips.

Fostering is another beautiful idea. My own mum used to do emergency fostering so we'd often have babies or children just for a weekend or a few nights while something was being sorted (not all abuse cases, once w had a little boy whose mum had PND and the house had become squalid due to lack of care, social services placed the boy with us for a weekend and the woman's family came in and helped her clean the whole house up and he was taken home on the MOnday after she'd seen the GP for a counselling referral and some AD's, sometimes we got a baby between them being given up anf the adoption process being final for a few weeks, sometimes we got them when their long-term foster parents were having respite (disabled kids)).

One thing i would say to you is that the longing and love for babies you feel is a big part of you, it makes up who you are, and that's a beautiful, loving, caring, mothering person. Embrace it hun, there aren't enough women like you in the world.

Bx