Nae,

Just wanted to give you some more of these

I am another that spent alot of time in the shower bawling with both DS#1 and DS#2.
I was so tired and emotional and had reflux / allergy babies who seemed to do nothing but cry / scream. Very very very hard times !

I totally understand - i did leave home one day - walked out and left my DH with 2 kids - i was gone for a couple of hours. I had no family or friends support cause we were in another state away from everyone. Easily the hardest time of my life !
This was when DS#2 was nearly a month old - we were still trying to find out what was wrong with him. I had reached breaking point and just needed to get away - all i wanted was my Mum - she had already gone back home and i wanted her to come back !

I really hope that things improve for you - you have alot of fantastic advice here - i hope it helps !

Please know that no-one is judging you and that you are definitely not alone.

I will be thinking of you - please take care.
Accept any help that comes your way.

Love to you and your family
xoxoxoxoxox