NEver any judgment hon As you can see from the responses, we all understand.

The mother "coping great" on her own is an urban myth we must put a stop to!

This takes courage, but when you're not coping it's time to ask for help - Take whatever is offered to you and ask from whomever you can. Definately call the ABA and maybe get onto your hospital - they may have LCs and daystay facilities to help you out. (You've seen an LC already? Maybe need to find a different one)