More from me Nae. I understand the feeling of pressure for everything to be perfect straight away. I tried to think of it as a new job - in any new job I would always give myself at least three months to find my feet and develop some confidence. Until then I just took it one day at a time and tried to learn as much as I could. You'll get through this babe, every single tiny thing you work out together will bring you closer to each other. In the meantime, take care of you, and let DH take care of you too.