Just wanted to offer you more

Most of what I would have posted has already been said by the others so I won't repeat it but I felt very similar to you during the early weeks. I found that I was 'faking' it (feeling that bond) until it started to happen naturally. I don't know if you have the energy for that or not but I found it helped me. You're not a bad mum for feeling this way, so many others have been in a similar position. I found things started to improve (slowly) once my son started to smile back at me. It was only small but it really helped me to feel that we were starting to develop some kind of relationship beyond the one-way cycle of feeding, nappy changes and rocking to sleep for short periods. Please let whomever you are most comfortable with IRL know that you need more support and we are all here for you. I am in country NSW - happy to travel a bit too if you need a hand with anything, housework etc so you can rest. xx