A sibling. I went through a lot at a young age, was socially awkward and never had an advocate. I would have so loved someone to share all that with me, to be my witness.
I know people get by just fine as only children (in fact, I think I read a thread about it this morning) but I was so lonely... it was really important for me that Beth (and by default Jordy) had someone to be there with them, an ally if at all possible. Luckily they get along well and seem to like each other; I know it could all have gone badly but by having another baby I was at least creating the possibility.
I'm also here, at home, spending time with my children, talking to them. I don't think my mother was ever present either physically or emotionally.
I'm doing my best to make sure my daughter is never afraid of me, so I do not give myself permission to smack because I know that if I was angry enough... well, it doesn't even bear thinking about.
Don't get me wrong, I could do more; I could play with them more and I could get angry less, but at least I'm trying to make changes.
Let my cubs have their own baggage, at least they won't have mine if I can help it