Hi girls,

Went and saw Dr D, he was at a delivery, but only had to wait for 15 mins or so.

I had both of the boys with me which makes things really difficult. I asked about the possibility of a S & S or an internal and he said he would do it if I really wanted it, but was I prepared for the news if it wasn't favourable and what would it achieve anyway when he knows how much I have worked towards having a natural birth.

He said that he is well engaged, and that he would expect me to go similar to Campbell ( Labour started 40w + 1d) . I was fine there, and thought yes he is right, what would I do anyway if I knew - nothing would change and he acknowledged that all I would have to do is tell him I have had enough and he would induce me, but also agreed that there are no guarantees that it would be the same positive outcome that Cooper's birth was should the cascade of intervention begin.

I think I am upset cause now I know I still won't know anything for at least another week till my next appt and he will probably talk me out of it again.

He also said that I am probably finding it even more difficult given my chosen profession now, and a big part of what I do is to encourage women to be patient and let their bodies do things in their own time - you know what he is right - what a fraud I would be if I can't at least do my best to wait it out regardless of what else is going on.