Hi, I just wanted to send lots of best wishes your way. I can't imagine what your going through. I'm not sure whether this would be an option to you but is it possible to use childcare? I know not everyone is open to this option but you don't necessarily have to use centre based care, you could try family day care or shared nanny care. I'm sorry I'm not much help to, but I'd definately talk it over with your GP. Even if it's not your regular one, there are some great female GP's around now who specialise in pregnancy options and counselling who may be able to help you decide what is right for you and your children. Wishing you all the best in your decision.