Thanks everyone.

I keep going over it in my head trying to figure out what's the best for all involved. I'm not thinking about my ex. (probably in time he'd come around, but now he's against it)

My kids, both don't want another one to join us, selfish i guess, but they're having to deal with their dad getting married and her having a toddler, so i guess they're over it all.

As i said, i love my job and just getting into it all and finally getting somewhere, i really dont' want to give that up. I'd need another room for the baby, so i'd have to move, which isn't really something i want to do right now or could.

I have thought of adopting it out, but i don't know if i'd be able to, nothing worse then getting to the end and wanting it. If i could either find a great but cheap babysitter, i'd probably keep it.

One thought i had was if i did adopt, is having to later deal with the 'why did u give me up?' What if his life ended up crap and it's better if i just didn't go through with it??

Too many thoughts and no answers. I know the easiest way out is to abort but is that the best??

Nelle, i know when i'm pregnant and i know what sex they are. With my first i knew i was pregnant before any test could pick it up. I remember going home over and over with doctors saying it's negative and not pregnant and then finally it showed up. I knew it was a girl. With the second, i knew the sex of it before it. I know how weird this sounds, but back then i was married and my dumb FIL kept saying to have another as we have to have a boy, and i didn't want to do as he said, and i kept having dreams it would be a boy. I finally gave in few years later and sure enough, had a boy. This one feels like a boy.