Congrats on this pregnancy.

I remember being where you are. I still remember thinking "oh, god, can't do this" before every appointment, and nearly vomiting before the dating scan because I just couldn't face the prospect of everything not being OK. And even when everything was, it didn't go away, which surprised me. I had huge troubles with every blood test because of that same feeling. It affected me physically. Honestly, all it took for me was to know that someone else had been there and come out OK, and that seemed to work, better than any other statistic, or test, or reassurance from anyone. But that mightn't work for you.

Don't feel dumb about going to see anyone, regardless of what state you're in at the time. Seing someone when you're well is actually a great idea, because you can get some strategies to help you cope if you do start to slide. Also, there may be a program in your hospital or area specifically for ANDA, or someone in your position.

This is not time to be shy about using the resources available to you. Take a deep breath, and take that step. Thinking of you!