i know your fear darl, i really do. i had never suffered anxiety until i fell pregnant with my first, i had an attack, which is actually how i found out i was pregnant! frikking hormones! i was constantly sick, and was terrified of a lot of things, going into a baby shop made me vomit, the thought of having my baby made me stress, but the thought of losing him made me stress too. i felt like i was losing my mind. after i was about 6 months, i started to see an accupuncturist, which was the best thing i ever did, the relaxation i felt after seeing him was amazing.

my ante-natal anxiety lasted until delivery, although not quite as severe, but when i saw my son for the first time, any fears went out the window. i was in love. post-natally i didn't suffer at all with him. after my baby girl was born i had no anxiety until about 12 weeks post-birth when the attacks were back. but i got them under control with lexapro and other natural treatments.

the point of my ranting is that you are not alone, and you WILL be ok. you and your baby will get through this.
PM me if you would like to, and if you need my number just let me know, i'm more than happy to chat when you need help calming down.