Lenny, hope you all have a fantastic catch up when DH gets home. DS will go bananas when he realises. C goes a bit mad when Nige gets home after a couple of hours

Shannon, I wondered the same thing. I actually mentioned it to the FS and he almost laughed at me. Ours is diff though, being DH family. His mum and eldest sister had hysterectomies in their mid 30s, second sister almost died of heamorrage at first AF and last sister had several miscarriages plus first child was very preterm, and had preterm problems with second child. DH had undecended testes. I'm thinking all sex organs start out the same in early foetus so perhaps his problems COULD be related back to his mother. FS didnt care to discuss.

Others relate the higher incidence of AC to the environment, chemicals, electronic "stuff", foods. That could effect some families more than others if they are succeptable I guess. Hmmm, it's a tough one to think about. I do wonder if we may have passed on something to C. I sure hope not, I wouldnt want her to go through the same thing.

Shannon, I understand what you were saying about the addiction and feeling lost. I never really felt a normal part of my belly buddies group, because of being the only AC one. I also felt a bit the same with my mums group for ages. Not so much now but I do feel 'alone' when they are now starting with the next bubs. I guess it has been part of my life for over 12.5years so it's coloured a lot of what I have experienced in that time. I am having a difficult time letting go of that way of thinking. It is going to take some time to stop thinking about TTC or waiting etc. I have to retrain myself I think.

Went through all of C's baby clothes last night. Took 5 big bags to the opshop today and will be selling the rest once I have organised bundles. I have already been through the bottles, jolly jumper etc. Feels good to be decided and proactive for a change. I am amazed at how OK I am with it all actually. Not like me at all! It has given me a bit of a boost in the "appreciate all the little things that come with this age cause they wont last long" department.

Lenny, completely understand how you feel about your trips to NZ. I often feel for those who move far away like that cause you spend all your holidays with family, not really "Holidaying" and feel obligated to do it, not just for fun. Do they get out here much? How is your brother doing these days??