Audax honey you sound like your doing it tough at the moment, you poor thing having your vein collapsed and crying in the gutter I dont really know what i can say to help you get through those feelings but i can understand where your coming from. Everytime i seen a heartbeat i was completely reassured and thought i could stop stressing but it was always shortlived, a couple of days later i would be expecting the worst. Even now being 21 weeks i cant completely relax, it does get a little easier when you start feeling bubs move but then you stress when you dont feel it IYKWIM.
Sorry if i was rambling there for a bit but i hope that helps you out a little.
All i can say is try and enjoy every minute and i know you will have your little bundle of joy in roughly 30 weeks time. Take care honey
Hello to everyone else, hope you are all doing well xxx