Tegam - you, my friend, are just amazing. Thankyou for all your support and encouragement. And who brought the Melbourne weather to Qld? It's overcast, a touch chilly ( for Qld) and breezy... where did that sun go?
Ferrals - I agree with Tegam.... if going to hide under a rock is what you need to do to get through the next 3 weeks, then so be it... and if having melt downs is another way, so be it. That's what we are here for. And just because you and DH knew and considered the risks, it doesn't make it any less scary or your emotions any easier to deal with. It's ok to be scared. Don't be so hard on yourself..... I just want to give you the biggest hug ever. Anyway, as T said, the only way forward is one moment at a time, and right now, despite your fears and your worries, you have a precious little bundle growing inside... you are nuturing a miracle and that is just the best. I have every confidence you can make it through the next 3 weeks.
HLP - Oh my sweet, I can't believe we are thinking almost the same. And amazingly I didn't think what I thought to be a really selfish post would in fact help anyone else. I am so glad I shared now. I am so so sad you feel the same way too. It's very draining.
We had a our last ante-natal class last night and the middie facilitating the course arranged for a 4 day old little girl to come in. OMG she, the baby, was just so divinely perfect and seeing her has at least given me something to picture in my mind, and a different picture to the one that plays endlessly in my mind now. I just wanted to nurse her and smell her and hold her close. But then again, that's pretty common for me anyway. The middie said last week she would try and arrange for a real baby to visit. I was worried that DH hadn't seen a newborn since our wee ones, but after we spoke about it, he had. I didn't want him to be totally unprepared for any emotions which might have surfaced. Not that you can ever really prepare, but at least if you've thought about it, it's not such a surprise. The really cool thing? He was equally as besotted as I was by someone else's baby. For him, it just really focused his excitement. I can close my eyes, and right now, I can imagine holding our little one, healthy and alive. And right now, for this moment, that's a pretty amazing thing. I can't always summon that positivity, but it is nice to feel it at least for now. And the mother, she just looked so radiant and glowing and beautiful. The Dad was pretty chuffed too and was really keen to answer as many questions as he could. It's just so nice that they got such a happy ending. It can happen.
Murray - how are you going? No more migranes?
Kit - how are you going?
Angel - good that you're back and survived camping. Glad the flutters have started. Way cool.
Hmm, I have such a case of tiredness and preggie brain that I can't remember much else. But hello to the recent escapees from the TTC thread - why are you so quiet? Teni - how are you doing? You must be about 10 weeks now? Hello to anyone I have missed and I know I have. Belly rubs.
All is good, Spud is a little small, but growing well, just at the smaller end of average (ie not a basket-baller, but neither DH nor I are tall). Ob is not worried so that is good. We thought at first Spud might come "late" due to the scan dates, but the head is already engaged, and my Ob said with glee "This baby won't be late!!" so it is getting quite exciting now!! Nursery ready, bag packed, now if only DH and I could agree on some names!! Neither of us like any of the names that the other does, so "Spud" may very well end up Spud after all! LOL!
Math and statistic suck more now days than they did in high school hey!
I got back on Monday afternoon.
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