Thanks for the emails. Tanya, thanks for wishing me a little boy...it would be a dream come true and I am praying for it. We will wait and see. I guess I am often just presuming its not a boy just to help prepare. Is that what alot of people do I wonder? Tanya, you mentioned you would not wish how you were feeling on any expectant mother, how are you now and can you tell me your story? I really hope you are feeling a bit better. I know how up and down the feelings can be.

Caro, must be both and excitng and challenging time. You have a daughter and expecting a little boy is that right? I wish you all the very very best and I am sure your reaction to your child will be positive. Be gentle on yourself, even if it takes a while to warm up to baby remember that can happen even in situations where gender is not the issue for parents. We are only human and as this forum shows, this emotion is experienced by many of us.

Well, today I have only been despondent. Much better than my usually totally anxious and occasioanally hysterical state. I imagine there may be a number of ups and downs to follow.I really appreciate having a listening and non judgemental ear. I think the hardest part is knowing there is something you desperately want (i.e the experience of being a Mum to a son) and the 50% possibility you may not get it. Makes you hold your breath somethimes, as in at times that reality just really grabs at you. Boy, the scan is something I can't wait for yet I also dread my reaction...I hope if is not the wee boy I am hoping for that I don't come crashing down again. Can i really prepare myself? Thanks again for listening and take care all of you out there facing the same struggle.