Thank you from my heart Charlotte91, TeniBear, PumpkinZulu & EMC2.

This is my first baby, so your comments are making me think more about a longer term Mother's perspective. Emotions on both sides are running high it’s a little hard to tell if I’m thinking logically. I never want to do something out of spite but protective instincts have already kicked in for my baby after that night and I don't think I would regret keeping him out of our lives as he's brought this on himself.

I always thought it was wrong to not let the father be around, but looking at this situation from a third party's eyes it is probably for the best. If he wants to come back and swears he's changed, it would probably be temporary. Just so weird to make a decision as big as we did and then him to renegg once the baby was already growing.

EMC2, does the father have anything to do with your baby now? If not, how did it end?

Similar to me in the way that I had a threatened miscarriage at 5 weeks & bled for 3 weeks and was advised by the hospital to go on bedrest and take it easy, and he was telling me that I wasn't cooking, cleaning and exercising enough even after I had explained the hemorage!!

I am scared of being a single Mother and you're right TeniBear I need to believe in myself. One thing is for sure (and a double edge sword) I would enjoy this journey more if he didn't exist, albeit I wouldn't be on this journey if it wasn't for him :heart: