i keep hitting the wrong keys on this thing

as i was saying i work at a school so am surrounded everyday with the mass of pregnant mums and babies comming to pick up thier other children i'm filled with such a jelousy that it scares me.

I guess not having any answers to why my Angel is not here with me makes it hard.
I don't want to be bitter towards others as i would not wish this upon anyone.

Did anyone else have these feelings in the begining?