laura - I remember that driving force and the insane jealousy over those older friends. I was determined to leave home and go it alone (especially since I knew everything ), but I just didn't sit around bitaching about it. I went out and got a job, I added to my twisted idea of a glory box so I had sheets and towels etc when I was 16.
I didn't want anyone to tell me what to do so bad I was the worst turd of all, but at least I fricken did it. I moved out at 16, paid my way with work, broke my parents hearts but at least the house was peaceful when I was gone.....and I've been trying to make it up to them ever since .

In any case I also know I'm finding hard to relate to her a little because she seems to be apathy all round. I didn't sit still when I was her age (although I always had my nose in a book like she does) it seemed there was so much to do. Ah well....

Tigger - those fact DO help, in fact it will be useful to revisit that post when the going gets tough