Hi Leigh,
I totally understand. I cant believe how much your story is like mine. DH is not as stressed as me every month and enjoys the practice more than anything I think! But sometimes it becomes a chore for me and only about one thing which is horrible sometimes. When and If I eventually get my bfp I will also be a nervous wreck, after a few m/c I think its hard not to be. I can even imagine myself thinking...ok how long will I get to enjoy this one before it all comes crashing down. You start to lose faith in yourself. But I guess positivity is the key...which is just so hard sometimes.

I also notice all those pregnant people on the street and I can feel myself almost glaring at them...horrible. And the bloody pregnancy adds are killing me, especially the one where she finds out she is pregnant (a new one)..what I would give to see a positive result and for it to stay that way!

I hope it happens for us soon...we seem to almost have the same experience so far...it would be great for us to both fall pregnant and share the feelings of that journey instead of this one. But its so nice to talk to someone who knows exactly what your going through and when you share your feelings you dont have to feel like your a horrible person for feeling the way you do.

By the way, I dont know if this happens to you...but I always get this, "your still so young (25) you have plenty of time and you already have one", they just dont get it!

Issy x