Angel Babies--I second everything plc just said--it was beautifully said, so articulate, and I could never say it better than that! I guess I hadn't realized exactly what you were saying in your post, but after looking back on it, I don't know how I missed it. Like pbstar, I read your posts before I even joined the thread, and your positivity and support for everyone else, despite how you were feeling about your own situation, was always unmatched! A few weeks after I joined the thread, I read your poems, and they were so beautiful I just sat there bawling! You are a strong, amazing woman, and we'll all miss you so much. that you'll check in on us every now and again, and double that you'll be blessed with a beautiful surprise BFP!