Morning girls.

Salt - how are you? Did you test again today? Dh still has his brain tumour - the surgery didn't get rid of it all and they can't do surgery again. He is on meds to control it, but it still has pretty nasty effects on him and his body. It isn't cancerous, so won't kill him, but it will reduce his life expectancy. He will have to end up having at least 10 yrs of radiation, but that will make him infertile so is not an option right now. It's a pain because it adds another dimension to all of this - we should already have our first baby now, and instead we are on treatment and trying to recover from 2 m/cs, and it puts off radiotherapy even further. I don't think about it most of the time, but sometimes I can't help thinking how unfair it all is. I know this is really horrible, but sometimes I wish that someone else (like a particularly nasty ex I have), could have the tumour instead of DH, because he doesn't deserve it - he is a really good person.

Sharon - I am so glad that you have seen your dr and are being taken seriously. It really sounds to me like something that can be so easily fixed with a bit of clomid or something, and I am glad you are going to see a proactive specialist. Keep us updated - I am feeling very positive for you that you can get this sorted and have another healthy bub in no time.

Shoegal - yay!! So glad to hear that the levels have dropped already. I was told to wait before TTC too, and it seems soooo long at the time, but is probably a good idea to give your body and mind a bit of a break. You are so right saying that you need to be happy now. That is what I am trying to do, as the reality is that we get so focused on having a baby that we lose sight of other parts of life, and we need to be happy with what we have. I am also so very lucky to have a beautiful DH and family and friends, a lovely house, a good job and a holiday coming up. I have so much to be grateful for. I am glad that you managed the first day back at work - I think that is the hardest and you have made it!

satya- you just totally freaked me out re pineapple juice - I have been drinking heaps! But I am only 5DPO so it is probably ok, I will just cut back in the next couple of days. That's fantastic timing for your gyno appointment. So glad to hear you are feeling positive!

kiwigirl - yay! That's great news!

Lee - woo hoo on being married! You never know - you may have managed a honeymoon bub!

Janeo - hey there, good to hear from you! I wish a lot of us were not here anymore too, but unfortunately we are still hanging around. How are the wedding plans going? I have just passed the EDD of my first, and it was not as hard as I thought it would be, but I know how you feel. You can't help but think of what could have been.

Hi to everyone else.

Has anyone ever noticed posts from other people on this site who use the angel emoticons to signify other things, such as their live children or their DH, or themselves? I have noticed a few people, who have obviously and luckily, never entered this part of BB and have no idea what the angel emoticons are generally used for. I would love to be that naive - to see an angel and think only happy thoughts, and to have m/c or loss not even cross my mind. Oh to be that lucky. If I ever see an angel on someone's sig my heart always goes out to them as I assume they have had a loss. But then often you look again and realise they are using the angel emoticon with an entirely different reason. It would be nice to be one of those people.