Hey girls! I haven't posted in here a while but checking in everyone it seems we are well on our way.
Kiwigirl- CONGRATS I am so happy for you! Things are really looking up
Congrats to Lee on the marriage thing Its so awesome
I hope good news is soon to come around here.
I am doing ok, I am able to ttc right away if I want but I think I might wait until July/Aug. and would love to conceive right around Aug. Sept. Well anytime of course but besides that I am soooooooooooo freakin scared. I am scared to ttc for fear of it taking long and I am afraid of finding out I am pregnant and most of all I am scared of the thought of going to my first doctor's appointment! I am so scared that when I think about it I get a lump in my throat and my chest feels tight. Does anyone relate and what do you do to feel better???? Please help its such an awful feeling. thanks all and i hope everyone continues to do well.
Salt - just read your post. Wish I had some words of wisdom, but just want you to know that "I hear you", truly I do. The only thing we can do to really help ourselves is to try and keep the hope alive. We all have hope, frustrating road as it can be sometimes.
Lets see what happens today and tomorrow for you, you are really not even late for AF yet. I reckon if AF hasn't shown up in the next 3 days, you are still in with a good chance.... I REALLY hope things work out this month for you. You are so kind to everyone here, even when faced with your own hard stuff, you still give everyone else such amazing encouragement. Thank you
Sharon - thanks - I hope I have a wedding bub too!! And good luck with the new Doc.
Satya - I'm a firm believer in "signs" - and I reckon your brilliant timing with a good gyno!! I'm feeling very positive for you!!
Bun - I agree - ignorance would be very welcome. Hugs to you and your DH. I know we have many blessings and lovely things to be grateful for. I wish you nothing but the best.
Well, I'm CD18. And although I didn't have much success with the OKPs this month - I 99% sure I O'd yesterday, things sort of "peaked". Luckily my new darling DH is up for all the BD required!! So, now it's in the lap of the gods and we start the painful TWW. I really need to NOT think about it. It's school holidays here, so I'm nicely diverted anyway.....
Salt - I'm so sorry, I was checking today hoping that you had some good news But don't lose hope yet, you never know its over until AF arrives. And I know what you mean about why is this happening, and I don't think you are being whingey at all! If you are, then i must be too because I feel the same way!
Lee - Congratulations on your wedding! I haven't had much success with the OPKs either lately - I've gone and bought a different brand to try this month, hopefully they will work. But don't worry about it as long as you timed BD well, you're in with a chance Fingers crossed for a honeymoon baby for you!
Diane - I don't really know what to say to make you feel better I guess just take it day by day - corny I know! But good luck for when you do TTC.
Bun - how are you going? Is just seems to me like you have been through so much - hugs to you. I also want to wish you all the best for your TWW and for this month.
Sharon - that's great that you've been to your GP and are going to see an OB, hopefully he'll be able to find some answers for you. But all the best for trying in the meantime
satya - thanks for the info on the pineapple juice - I'm thinking I might give it a go this month, what can it hurt? I'm glad you're feeling positive and that's great that you're seeing a gyno and so soon.
shoegal and kiwigirl - that is great news for both of you! All the best for TTC very soon, and shoegal I hope AF arrives for you really soon!
Well I've had a bit of a crap day today I had a good friend ring me today to RSVP to DDs 3rd birthday party on the weekend, and after a bit off stuffing around on the phone she finally blurts out that she is pregnant. Please don't get me wrong I am really happy for her, and she was really nice about telling me, all worried about how I'd take it because she knows what has happened to me over the last few months, but they weren't really trying to get pregnant (although they had plans for another soonish) and now I feel really bad not because I'm envious or anything, but because she was so worried about telling me. And I don't want to have friends feeling sorry for me either! She had been holding off telling me hoping that I would get pregnant soon. So that makes two of my close friends that are pregnant now and they are two of the three friends that know about my m/cs. I'm just feeling really frustrated about all this TTC business today, I wish it would just hurry up and happen!! Actually I wish it would hurry up and happen for all of us! And I feel like I'm wishing the months away. Oh well, what do you do I guess? I think a big dose of patience is in order LOL
Hi to everyone I've missed, better get going and start cooking dinner for my hungry DD
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Ladies - a quick question - do most of you get sore BBs straight after O'ing?? Mine are really tender, which is why I'm assuming I did O yesterday. They were sore this time last cycle (and I read way too much into it, thinking I was pg!!). Just curious, as it's a good way for me to pinpoint O.
well it seems I am not the only one on a downer today. I even cried myself to sleep last night. Just thinking about the baby girl I lost and wanting her to be with me but also the desperation I feel in wanting another baby now is just wearing me down. Is this normal? I am thinking maybe I need to stop focusing on TTC for a while and focus on me and my family. I just keeping thinking this shouldn't be this hard. I feel so selfish to because there are people who have been tyring for years and its only been two months. I guess I am scared that it will happen to me and I will have trouble concieving this time. To top it off still no sign of Af and I did a HPT again and suprise suprise it was a negitive (And it doesn't matter how many angles I turned it or held it under diffent lights in every room in my house (Pure desperation sad I know) a second line did not appear.
Has anyone ever checked their cervix position and is it hard to do?
Salt: I still have my for you this month maybe your levels just arnt their yet? Are you using Lullaby HPT they detect from 10ml. It is amazing the hope you grab onto from one line?
Zionsmom: I think we all feel like that and I dont think there is a way to deal with it you just do! At the end of the day you have to try because you want that baby in your arms.
Bun: I am so sorry for all that you are going through at the moment. Here I am complaining and your DH is really going through a tough time. I hope that things improve for you both and I really pray this is your month for a BFP.
Good luck to everyone this month Bring on lots of BFP'S
Lee - good luck with the TWW. I do sometimes get sore BBs after O but didn't this cycle.
Megsmum - that must be so hard with two close friends being pg right now. I really hope you get a BFP soon.
Cherie 26 - Sorry you had such a bad day today. We all have them..... in all the years I've tried I've had heaps of them and I find you have a bad one or a few bad ones and then you come good again.
Sharon - good luck with Oing.
Bun - yes I've noticed the angels signifying live children. I don't get it. They don't know how lucky they are. Your DH sure has been through a lot. I hope all is OK with him now.
Nothing exciting going on with me today. Just want the two week wait to hurry up and disappear.
My plans are going well Bun, i have got my dress organised and bm's well actually everything is organised im a freak lol...... Nah its been a good distraction.. But now i have it all done im dwelling on things.... Plus with my neighbour ready to pop she is due 3 days after my edd and its hard but ill get there....
I wish you all the best for your journeys and im thinking of you all.... Thank you all for your support......
Bun thanks, I will definitely keep everyone posted. I have to say I haven't noticed people using angel emoticons for live family members. I wish it could be like that for all of us. zionsmom your fears are completely normal, I know I am going to feel the same way when I go for my 1st Ob appt and he reaches for the u/s machine, but at the moment I am just focussing on getting to that point 1st since I seem to getting pg easy enough but they just aren't sticking. saltprincess I hope that I don't need to see my ob/gyn for any other reason than being pg too, but just don't feel very positive at the moment. I am so sorry that you got a BFN this morning, I know EXACTLY how you feel, you got your hopes up just slightly, but seeing only 1 line this morning would have been like a big kick in the guts huge :hugs:. What was your temp this morning? Lee I have my for you, hope the TWW flies by. Oh, and I usually get sore nipples/bbs a few days after O'ing. megsmum it is hard to be patient when it is for something that you want so badly, and that you did have, briefly, only to have it taken away, it is cruel and it is something we shouldn't have to go through, I hope that you manage to get pg very soon so that you can share your experience with your friends. cherie26 :hugs: to you hun, it is difficult coping when you want something so badly, if you feel like you need to have a break from TTC then take one. As for checking the cervix, I do it every day, at the same time, usually around 3pm and once you get the hang of it, it isn't very difficult at all, I find it easier if I squat, then I just insert 2 fingers, it shouldn't take you to long to figure out the different positions.
hi to anyone I have forgotten (sorry) and good luck to all those waiting to O or in the TWW.
I am really feeling like I am just not supposed to have any more children, if the ob/gyn tells me that to fix my problem is just a matter of taking a couple of pills then that is ok, but I know that my DH doesn't want to spend too much time (and testing) to get there, because the way he sees it, we do have 2 healthy boys, but to me that is like giving child a chocolate, letting them have a taste then taking it away and saying they can never have chocolate again iykwim
I've been MIA for the last few weeks. There has been so much going on, I just don't have the time to read and/or post as much as I use to. Plus I was freaking out a little a few weeks ago about Mothers Day and my 30th birthday, and then my grandfather died (so it was all very sad).
Jane - good to hear that your wedding is all planned - nothing wrong in being organised. I have been thinking about my upcoming due date too - all those could've/would've thoughts. I was looking around a jewellery store this afternoon and was thinking I should buy something to signify my angel. I found out that the June birthstone is Pearl - so I'm thinking something along those lines. I just don't know how I feel about it all though, maybe I should just let the day pass??
Kerry - I'm sorry you are back here again. *hugs* We could still become belly buddies again. Hope your appt went well today.
Salt & Bekz - Yay we all have the same birthday! Of course I am much much younger ha ha j/k(turned 30). I don't think I've ever come across anyone with the same birthday, so 3 of us in here together is very unreal.
Looks like there have been a few BFP's as well. Congratulations to you girls - wishing you happy & healthy pregnancies.
Anyway I have to get some sleep - I'm so tired and I have a full workload tomorrow. I will have to try and get on here every few days to catch up on everything.
Janeo - great to hear from you! Hope the wedding plans are going well. I'm sorry you have such a sad date coming up, hope you are surrounded by lots of people who love you to get you through.
Satya - Good luck with your new gyno...hope he turns out to be the one to bring your dreams true! Hope you caught that egg this week too
Sharon - Great to hear from you! Hope you are doing ok?? Glad that your GP could recommend someone that should be able to help you. Let us know how it goes when you have your appointment.
Zionsmum - I totally understand how you feel. I wasn't going to do this cycle for feeling the same way, then the fighting instincts just kicked in and as soon as AF turned up, I knew I had to keep going. If you need to take some time, then do it, maybe it's what you need to refresh and keep going again?
Bun - I had noticed that too with the angels! Glad I'm not the only one who thought something of it!
Salt - I'm so sorry hun :hugs: It's just not fair and so heartbreaking and so incredibly cruel. It's supposed to be one of the most natural things a woman can do, and for a lot of us, it's the hardest
Lee - Good luck on your TWW, hope it flies by, probably good timing with the holidays!
Megsmum - Hugs for you too! That would be hard having 2 of your confidants pregnant. I also hate that my friends don't feel like they can tell me they are pregnant, it's still nice to feel involved even if things are hard yourself, isn't it? What have you got planned for the 3rd birthday?? My DS is 3 in June, we are having a little morning tea with his besties and a cake!
Cherie - Hugs to you too! It's seems to have been a hard week for a lot of us
Hi to everyone else!
My scan this morning was a little more promising, I'm just a slow responder! Had a 12.7mm follie growing and the lining looks a little healthier, so I've been sent home with OPK's to start on Saturday and another scan on Monday. He said if things keep going like this, we should be right to go ahead, so fingers crossed my body keeps behaving!
I went to the movies last night with 2 girlfriends to see 'Because I said so'...was a funny, girlie movie and would recommend it! Was good for a laugh (and perve factor was pretty good too!!). Went out for desert and a wine afterwards, was a good night!!
Aww I'm sorry salt . I have been stalking your chart hoping your temp would go up again.
Hi to everyone else.. I'm at CD10 and really hoping this month will be our month for another BFP. A close friend just found out she's pregnant and due early Feb so would be wonderful to have a close EDD to her (if I get a BFP this month I may even have a leap year baby...).
Salt- I understand your disappointment :hugs:. I am praying that it will happen for you soon.
Satya- It just seems to be more bad days then good at the moment but I do have alot to be grateful for so I need to start focusing on those things a little more!
Sharon- Thanks for the info on the cervix! I am just so into finding out all the aspects of TTC so maybe it will make things easier and there is so much I didn't know before because the two times I fell pregnant we didn't even have to try it happened first go.
I am sorry you are having difficulties yourself at the moment. I hope that your ob will give you good news and that it will b e just a couple of pills (If it is give me some!).
Las- I am so excited for you! Great news about the scan so hopefully this will be your month for a BFP!
Well for the first time since the loss of our little girl my husband talked to me about it and actually cried (Not a crier at anytime). He has been a little hesitant in TTC and just kept saying he might not be ready for the responsibility (made no sense to me either). So I finally realised why and asked him if it was because he was scared that I would miscarry again and finally a break through YES! Did anyone elses partners of husbands feel like this? How do I reassure him so he will want to TTC?
Oh well better fold some washing and check my little boy is sleeping!
Salt - so sorry to hear AF is on her way. Boo hiss to her! I know how you feel, but at least you have a good plan and a great OB to see in a couple of months if you haven't fallen. I like a plan - I find it usually makes you feel better! I don't know if this helps, but apparently there is only a 20% chance of falling each month, so sometimes it can take time, but you WILL get there! DH and I would like 3 or 4 kids, but I am thinking there is not much chance of that now, as we will run out of time. If it takes this much time, effort and losses to just get one, I think I will get too old to have 4 now! It would be nice to manage 3, but I suppose we just have to wait and see. to you. And you are not being whingey - I have those same thoughts too. Everywhere I look there are pg women, and I think why did they get to keep their babies when both of mine died? It should be the easiest thing in the world, yet for some of us it just doesn't work out that way. It really is so unfair.
Diane - what you are feeling is totally normal. I am terrified no matter what too! I am scared of not getting pg, of getting pg, I am utterly terrified of scans and the first appointment if I am pg, I am scared of BTs in case they tell me the levels are too low, I am scared of everything! I don't really have any advice - I think it is only natural to feel this way. I have found counselling good - to try and drive away those negative thoughts and replace them with happy things, and I try to look at all the good things in my life and focus on them. The trouble is that doesn't always work! At least you can always come here and know that we understand what you are going through.
Lee - I get really sore nips around O time, so that may be a good sign for you!
cherie - my DH was the same. They seem to find it so hard to talk about things, and then finally open up. My DH is scared of us m/cing again, and of the effect it has on me, but has made the decision to keep trying, knowing that if I m/c yet again I will probably lose the plot completely. I am glad that he has finally opened up to you - it makes it much easier to understand where you are both coming from. Sometimes they just take so long to get there!
las - glad to hear your scan went better this time. Yay!
megsmum - that's tough about your friend being pg. A friend did a similar thing to me recently - lied to me about it hoping that I would get pg, because then it would be easier to tell me! It really doesn't help, does it?
Sharon - I am pretty sure you will find that it is just a matter of a few tablets and nothing more than that, as you fall easily enough. When is your appointment?
missbelinda - good to hear from you. Sorry to hear about your grandfather. Where are you at atm?
OMG, I have just seen 9 preggo women today (possibly a tenth, but she was a little large so not sure if it was a baby bump or not). Are they stalking me or something??
SP I am so sorry that AF is on her way to you hun. missbelinda77 nice to see you pop in, I hope work doesn't keep you too busy though. *las* the ob/gyn I see is the same one that delivered my GP's 2 boys so he can't be too bad. I have my fingers crossed that your body keeps behaving and you get your bfp this cycle. cherie26 I didn't have a clue about any of these O signs/symptoms but it doesn't take long to pick it up and work it out. Bun my appointment is on June 15th, so only 2 weeks away. How are you going? not long till testing as for all the preggo women, everytime I go out I see hundreds of them (well maybe not quite that many LOL)
my temp went down this morning, and had some more ewcm today, dh played golf this afternoon and was definitely not up for a BD session, so I think I will just have to pin him down tomorrow night LOL
Sharon- good luck with the BDing.
las - Best of luck with your follie.
Salt - sorry your AF is on it's way. Try and keep positive.
Kiwigirl - CD10 for you already. That came around really quickly.
Cherie - It's good that you and your partner had that conversation. Best to get things out in the open. My DF did not feel like that - he just wanted to get straight back into TTC mode again but our situation is very different - I have a history of infertility so the odds of conception aren't great and I am 41 so I have a 40% chance of m/c even if I do conceive - therefore we have to just keep trying.
Bun - 3 or 4 kids - gee your keen. Just the one will do for me, but then again we do have one part time so make that 1.5. Due to my age I'm scared I'll end up with twins.... don't get me wrong it would be great but I don't know how I'd afford child care for two kids.... we already pay it for miss 4 but she would be in school by then so maybe we could..... or perhaps I'd just have to give up work. You are not the only one being stalked by preggo women - it's happening to me to. You know it's a really good sign - I saw heaps of them the month I conceived - lets hope its our lucky month this month.
Sorry to anyone I've missed.
Well it's CD18 for me now & 4DPO. Feeling really positive this cycle. Let me tell you why. My skin has not broken out after Oing - I always break out and the only cycle where this didn't happen was when I was pg. My coverline moved on FF from CD12 to CD14 which is exactly what I thought as I experienced some pretty severe O pain that day. I have cold symptoms, trying not to read anything into this though as half the office has had a bug that's going around. This happened last pg too. I am experiencing large amounts of creamy/clumpy cm... never had this before. It started yesterday and has increased this morning. I had a weird pain yesterday for hours on end but it was more in the hip than the abdo and had mood swings. Had extreme fatigue last night - went to bed at 7.30 to watch tv & missed everything that I meant to watch. Not going in to work today as just don't feel up to it.
Its so awesome 
But don't lose hope yet, you never know its over until AF arrives. And I know what you mean about why is this happening, and I don't think you are being whingey at all! If you are, then i must be too because I feel the same way! 
and suprise suprise it was a negitive (And it doesn't matter how many angles I turned it or held it under diffent lights in every room in my house (Pure desperation sad I know) a second line did not appear. 
for you this month maybe your levels just arnt their yet? Are you using Lullaby HPT they detect from 10ml. It is amazing the hope you grab onto from one line? 
for me. Nighty night.
for this month...
so using the library when I can....
as for all the preggo women, everytime I go out I see hundreds of them (well maybe not quite that many LOL) 
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