Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage or Loss ~ June 08

**issy02** · June 11th, 2008, 12:01 PM

This is the same post as the one I did in the tww thread...

First of all CONGRATULATION JENUSHKA!

That is such wonderful news, wishing you a healthy and happy pg....!

Sorry, the rest of this is going to be a 'me' post...

Ok...I caved and POAS this morning, it was a BFP...but... and that's a very big BUT...it was a light one, and my experience with light bfp's have all ended in early m/c / chemical pg. I believe that the strength of the line is indicative of the HCG levels, and obviously they are not very high. So Im not excited, and im not sad, Im just going to take it as it comes. There is absolutely nothing I can do to make it stick, and nothing I can do to stop a m/c. It is what it is, so...I will wait a few days and if AF doesn't arrive, ill POAS again and see what it says.

Thankyou so much pbstar I feel exactly the same way, I cant wait to see you get your BFP and I know its going to happen soon. Has AF arrived yet? Im still holding hope for you hun. Ill be saying extra

just for you for!

Sorry this wasnt a joyful announcement, Im just not sure there is anything to celebrate yet, I just wanted to keep you posted on whats happening, and it gives me a chance to vent cause I cant tell anyone else, except DH, who is angry that I POAS early...i just couldnt help myself.

Thanks ladies,

Issy

**mollycat** · June 11th, 2008, 01:45 PM

Issy - can I offer you some quiet congratulations - I'll save the noisy ones for later when everything has settled.

for you that everything will turn out just fine.

**AJC** · June 11th, 2008, 02:20 PM

Issy - doesn't sound like you want to official congrats yet but just wanted to send you lots and lots of

and a big big

. Will say a

for you that everything turns out well.

**Jodsan** · June 11th, 2008, 03:09 PM

Hey everyone, had my head in the books. Just had my first exam today, one more to go next Weds.

AJC - is it your scan tomorow? If so, good luck!!

Jenushka and Issy- I have congratulated you in the TWW post!

Anglebabies - God luck with your "new" TTC journey.

Jen - hey, how are you?

Hey Plc - glad your finally starting to feel better.

Big hello to everyone else, I've missed a bit but will try to catch up over the next couple of days.

**nicjay** · June 11th, 2008, 04:10 PM

Hi ladies,

Took me a bit longer to get back than I thought! It turned out to be a busy weekend.

Jenushka and Issy - Big congrats to both of you!! Issy, I understand your worries, I hope it turns out that you are wrong!

AJC - Good luck for tomorrow from me too.

jen - Yay for having a wireless card!! LOL

Sandy - Hi and welcome! I wish I had some wise words for you, but I don't

It is hard dealing with friends that all have their newborns when you don't isn't it? All I can really suggest is just do what you have to do to get through it, if you don't feel like seeing them don't. All my friends with babies understand when I'm having a bad time and say that I'm just not feeling like socialising. Maybe it might help too that some one else is going through similar to you, I conceived on Clomid last year and miscarried and we have been TTC for 18 months now. I have just started back on Clomid this month along with IUI, and really hoping that we might finally have some luck again.

plc - Glad to hear the tonsillitis is getting better!

Tina and KrystieLove - So sorry to hear that AF arrived

Krystie, I hope you get some answers from your ob - good luck.

Hi to all you other lovely ladies that I have missed, hope you are all well!

AFM - Going along well, CD10 today and I have finished taking Clomid with no side effects. I had my scan and BT done today and I have one nice big mature follicle, so have to give myself the trigger shot tonight and have my first IUI on Friday morning. And lots of BDing in the meantime

So hopefully I should start the TWW on about Saturday. I'm feeling pretty good about this month, here's hoping this is the one!

**Where there's hope** · June 11th, 2008, 04:28 PM

Issy sweets -

All dipsticks start out with weak. It is very early... Like Mollycat can I offer a quiet congrats? we'll celebrate later when you're good and ready

KrystieLove - I would have freaked out with a message like that on my machine. Sounds promising!! thanks for the info about your US, left ovary, etc. I am just going to have to be patient and wait it out until my OB appointment in a couple of weeks and see what he says. Love your new ticker.

Sandygirl -

You will feel listened to here...

PBstar - sorry also to you about the BFN

. Even though I was not mean't to be trying last month there was one occasion that might have made us PG. And in the week leading up to my AF I was certain I had all the early PG symptoms, too.

Jen - dunno why I wake at 4.30 every morning. I am a very light sleeper and it has become a silly habit. I do manage to get back to sleep, though. But use the 4.30 time for temping. On the CM - last month (cycle 2 after...) I had more CM than I can ever remember. And it lasted for days - make the most of it sista - you are supa=dooper fertile this month!

AJC - best wishes for the scan. Hope you come home with a lovely photo to put on your bedside or on the fridge

PLC - Hope you are feeling less "crappola"! Wow - you nine-and-a-half weeks. It seems like your pregnancy is moving forward so quickly. Guess it is easy to say when it is someone else with the MS. Anyway, way to go!

Mollycat - sounds like you got some good R&R at the bay. Sorry AF is on her darned way...

TinaK - it is very frustrating not understanding your body. I hope you have a good FS looking after you. Are you temping? Is it helping explain your wacky cycle?

Jodsan - my Lunar time is after my official "O" but I do not know if my DH can keep going on this month. Good luck with your exams

Megsmum - glad the Clomid is working for you!

this is your month. Can I ask, did you see follicles on both ovaries?

AFM - DH still down and out but poor thing has dutyfully been BD with me each day. OPK actually has worked this month - yesterday - so should be dropping my eggie today.

we manage in world record time of one cycle TTC. Yeah right!!

To anyone I have missed "hi"

pink-babydust:

**AJC** · June 11th, 2008, 04:47 PM

Thanks so much for the well wishes girls - I know why I miss you all so much now because you're all such great support.

**~ Mylitta ~** · June 11th, 2008, 04:49 PM

plc - Glad your throat is feeling better without having to use the abs. I'm just like you, paranoid about putting anything in my body when pregnant. I was even avoiding panadol when I was pregnant with my angel "just in case" even though apparently it's safe. Better safe than sorry yeah?

And thanks for the hugs. It was just what the doctor ordered!

Sandygirl - I'm sorry for the reasons you have joined us in this thread, but I am very glad that you have found us. There is a wonderful and supportive bunch of ladies in here. I hope your decision to start or not to start on clomid is not too difficult on you and I wish you the best whatever you decide.

Jen - I'm a chronic over-thinker! I think it's why I always fall asleep after DH has been snoring away for at least half an hour, lol. I just find it hard to shut my brain down. I spoke to my ob's receptionist/nurse today, so I'll put a little note at the end of my post as to what they said...
I totally and absolutely second Angel Babies post to you!!!

Every post of your exudes warmth and comfort!
PS. I'm stalking your temp chart. My guess would be that you haven't quite ovulated yet. Possibly yesterday, but I'm not convinved yet

I'll keep checking over the next few days and see if I can have a better guess then

Issy - My thoughts are with you and I'm hoping very hard that this is a little sticky bubba for you!

Jodsan - What are you studying? I hope the studies for your exams are going well. Do you feel good about the one today?

Megsmum - Your cycle sounds like it's going well! A nice big mature follicle sounds very promising so I'll be thinking lots of conception thoughts for you on Friday!

WTH - I'm glad you like the ticker. I'm trying to keep my thoughts positive and happy

I know you don't see your ob for a couple of weeks, but I'll send you some early good luck for now anyway.And then a bit of extra good luck for you to catch your eggie! What a good little DH you have

I think I know who the next BFP might be... But I'll just cross my fingers and bite my tongue...

AFM - I spoke to someone at the obs office today. Apparently my hcg level from last friday was 17. That's when I was 12DPO. On the 19th of last month it was 101. I asked her if it might still be 17 from my last pregnancy, but she said it was unlikely and she thought it would have been lower than 17 by now. I guess I could always take the other BT that I have the form for to see how quick it's dropping, but I think I will just hold onto it for the end of this cycle. I'm still not quite sure what to think, but I'm not sure if I could handle grieving a miscarriage at the moment, so I'm not going to continue investigating it or ask my ob about it until the next time I see him (which will hopefully be when I am pregnant next). I guess the options are that either the level was still up a bit from the last pregnancy, or that I conceived this month, the baby implanted and made some hcg and that the hormones levels weren't sufficiently high to maintain the pregnancy (therefore early miscarriage). For the sake of my sanity I'm going to think it's the first option, and if I find out that it's probably the second option at some time down the track, then I'll grieve for my second baby later when I feel more emotionally stable.

Sorry for the essay!!

I hope everyone else is doing much better and that our combined moods have picked up. We are all wonderful ladies and we deserve to be happy!!

**nicjay** · June 11th, 2008, 04:58 PM

WTH - Yes I had follicles in both ovaries. The mature one was 20mm and the others were all a bit smaller. I just checked back through the posts and you were worried because you didn't have any in one ovary right? I wouldn't really compare yourself to me this month because remember I have been taking Clomid and the whole idea of it is to make me produce more than one follicle. They are giving me the trigger to a) make sure that I ovulate and b) hopefully make sure that I ovulate before another follicle becomes mature as well, because DH is not keen on the idea of twins.

I had a scan last cycle (natural cycle) too and had follicles in both ovaries, but my scan was quite a few days later than yours was, so wouldn't really compare that to you either. Maybe because your scan was earlier than mine, more follicles were yet to develop in your other ovary? Or (more likely) maybe the biggest follicle you did have was already outrunning the others in the race to mature? I think when one gets big enough the others stop growing?? I don't know, I'm not really an expert, but I thought the other ladies that responded to you gave pretty good advice

I wish I could answer you question hun, but I think its definitely one for your ob or FS. Maybe next cycle (if there is one

) there will be follicles in your other ovary?

Anyway, I hope my ramblings have been of some help - probably not!!

**jen805** · June 12th, 2008, 12:35 AM

plc--I feel proud and honored to receive such high compliments!

It's a little embarrassing, because I've never taken compliments well, but it was completely unexpected and totally appreciated! Hope you're continuing to get better!

issy--You've got massive restraint! So I'll just quietly wish you :goodluck2: and wait with baited breath until I can scream it out loud! So

for now, and I'm praying I can add you to that list of BFP's by the end of today! Here's 2 tons of

stickyvibesboy: special delivery just for you!!!

AJC--Good luck with the u/s today! Can't wait to hear all about it! You must be so excited--and probably very anxious--not to worry, all will be great!

megsmum--Congrats on finishing the Clomid with no side effects! And a nice mature follicle means only one thing: time to get busy

Fingers are crossed you catch that egg--sounds really promising! Sending lots of conception vibes your way! I should know this, but can I ask you what a "trigger shot" and also what IUI is?

Jodsan--Hope your test went well today, what is it that you're studying? Good luck with the other test next week. I'm sure all the studying has been helping to keep your mind off the TWW, hope it's moving quickly for you!

WTH--Thanks, will definitely try to make the most out of it! I actually gave DF a break last night--was just too tired! Hopefully that won't come around and bite me on the butt since I missed a day! What a sweet, dutiful DH you have

I'm crossed all over that you'll catch that egg!

Krystie--Thanks for the compliment--you're all going to give me a big head! lol.. I'm an
over-thinker, as well! It's like I lay down and my brain turns on, while DF can lay down his head down and fall asleep within 30 seconds! The snoring then makes it even harder to fall asleep! Thanks for stalking my chart--I appreciate any advice you may have! It's pretty confusing to me, and I don't have a coverline yet, and FF is still showing that I'm fertile, but not showing O. So I'm not sure what's going on! I've been stalking charts, as well, trying to compare others with mine--they're just all so different, there's no real way to compare them! How confused you must feel about your cycle right now!

Are you still thinking of waiting until the end of this cycle to test your hcg again? You've got a lot of restraint, I think if it were me I'd cave after a week, just so that I would know--but then again I tend to be a glutton for punishment, so it's probably better your way! I'm really praying for you that it was leftover hormones, just remember that whatever you find out, we're all here with you and for you--through good times and bad! You may now kiss the bride... lol, j/k!

AFM... Had major O pains yesterday--not at all like AF, they were sharper pains and pinches. At one point I sneezed and it felt like someone stabbed me with a knife on my left ovary, then it spread throughout my whole abdomen, making me double-over, it was pretty bad! As of last night still had watery CM and cervix is high, but appears closed--which is confusing to me, as well! You can't have abundant CM and O pains without actually O'ing, right? I think the temping is making me more anxious than I was last month, or maybe I was just in a better place last month, but I just want to see a coverline so I know what the heck is going on!

Ok, I feel better now, thanks for letting me vent!