Canary and JC - Fingers crossed for you girls! Good luck and sending all my BPF thoughts your way, at least until the end of my cycle

Krystie - Welcome, as strange as it seems to welcome someone to a thread when they've been through something we wouldn't wish on anyone to get here. That was long-winded but what I mean is, welcome, and I am truly sorry for your loss. It is hard when you feel like you're 'in between', I went through the same sort of thoughts after my m/c last June, but the girls here are just lovely. You hang around, chat, cry, share..everything! We're all here for one another And likewise, I think getting BTs done to know where you are is probably a good idea. I didn't, but kind of wish I had because I was in such a state of confusion for a while afterwards.

Mollycat - oh no about the leak! Fingers crossed that the builders get a wriggle on and finish the roof and the wall. I don't like to wish away rain, but if it could just hold on until the roof and wall are up.. Good luck catching the egg!

Issy - lol about your DH. Mine's the opposite, he's such a sensitive soul, though denies it. it's not that he doesn't enjoy BDing, but if he's tired or a bit grumpy or has a hurt anywhere..it's a no go. So I just have to work a bit harder at those times to make sure he's decided it's worth, or more important than, the extra tiredness or whatever

Vanaithi - Try not to get too dosheartened by the BFNs, even though it is hard. I usually test early, when I know that even if I am pg, it's too early to show up, and wind up disappointed. Maybe try to hold out until AF is due or late, as hard as that is Sounds like you're ready and prepared anyway! I think the dream is maybe from thinking so much about the whole thing, I find I have dreams about things I have been thinking about/obsessing over It's not just you

WTH - my thoughts with you. After a loss, it's impossible not to start blaming ourselves and wodnering what we did, or what went wrong, even though logically we know that often it wasn't caused by anything we did or didn't do. In regards to the sore throat, well, anything's possible! When I got pregnant last year, it was by a very happy accident, days before I should have ovulated and in a very unhelpful position for conception...and I know it had to be that time because it was hectic time for us, we were moving and that was the only time we BDed in ages! So you never know

Sorry if I missed anyone! I'm going to have to start checking more frequently as I get left behind and then miss people!

As for me, I went out last night to see Christine Anu and Deni Hines with a few girls from work, it was good fun and I just drank water and lemonade, and no one even asked why I wasn't drinking my usual wine! Oh well, lol...I suppose that's good, becuase I find it very hard to lie and would have told them that we'd started TTC, and now that they don't know, it's a bit less pressure.

After the show last night, I weakened and bought two HPTs. I've had a few small..things which have got me thinking lately..wondering if maybe I got pregnant last cycle without realising. AF was a bit lighter and shorter last month, and my eyes have gone blurry, where I normally have perfect vision. Apparently pregnancy can cause the shape of your eyes to change due to fluid retention..so that was my first thought. Still, it came up BFN, of course. So I'm saving the other test until AF is due or late. I must be strong!

I think I have some EWCM starting, and at just about the right time. I'm on day 12..so I should be O'ing any day now. I'm a little freaked out though..I used to always get a pain when I was going to ovulate..and so far this month, nothing. There's been the odd twinge all through the month, but not the usual ovulation pain. Hopefully I'm still ovulating... Oh well, drag Dh into bed tonight..and tomorrow..and the next day...and hope for the best.

Lisa xx