hi ladies

i am in the middle of a very early loss, probably what you call a chemical preg. just found out i was definitely pregnant thursday but woke up bleeding yesterday. the bleeding is now extremely heavy and (sorry if TMI) passing huge clots.

i was feeling ok about it all but today have woken up and have been unable to stop crying. i feel like a failure. a failure as a wife, as a woman as a human being. i feel like before with the miscarriage in January it was only a one off thing that happened but this has just confirmed that there is definitely something wrong with me now. i feel like i am being punished for every bad thing i ever did in my life.

i know these are all stupid and selfish thoughts but am just feeling so black- feeling physically, mentally and emotionally depleted.

i know i will be ok and will pick myself up but just needed to get these feelings out.

thanks for listening.