Pbstar- I am so sorry sweety I know its hard to think it at the moment, but is so not your fault and doesn't mean there is something wrong with you. A friend of mine had 3 mc's bw her two bubs and her 2nd was fine. I really think its just the luck of the draw. I know I'm probably getting repetitive, but not every egg can be perfect and not every sperm can be perfect, but eventually two perfect ones will get together. There is nothing you can do that will alter that. I think these really early losses are very common, which is why doctors always want us to wait til after AF is due to POAS. Try to give yourself a break. Take care and come in and vent as much as you feel like doing.