Ok, I know I'm not supposed to be here--supposed to be camping. Drove 3 hours (after getting lost) to find the campsite is closed until next weekend! Then we had to drive 3 hours home--needless to say, DH not too happy. We've been so busy trying to plan this trip that there's been no bd'ing for 2 days! Supposed to have O during the last week, but just not sure. Hope I didn't miss my window for this mo!

pbstar--Unfortunately these feelings you're having are so familiar to us all! It's heartbreaking, I know, and it feels like your world has come crashing down around you. Please, please, please, don't listen to that nagging voice in your head (I know it's there--like a never-ending slide show in your mind) that tells you that this is your fault, and that you did something wrong. Nothing you did could have prevented this from happening, you did nothing wrong--and you're definitely NOT a failure! I had 3 m/c in between my boys, so I know from experience that it can still happen when it's meant to be. I've also done a lot of research on the topic and was surprised to hear how common it is for women to m/c. With 2 of my m/c I was POAS the day that I was supposed to start, got my BFP, then m/c within a week. My dr. told me that had I not been trying, I wouldn't have taken the HPT, and I would've just thought that my period was late. He said that most women that start their cycle late are actually having a m/c and don't even know it! I don't know if there's any truth to that, but it did help me to feel a little more "normal". My heart truly breaks for you--the "black" feelings, the emptiness, I know all too well. I think we all do. Though it won't go away, the pain will lessen over time, I promise. Just know that we're all here for you and we all care about you!