Hi Barbara. This is AF no. 2 for me as well. I guess after all our bodies have been through it is only natural that it will take time for them to return to some semblance of normalcy.

Do you have to go to the bridal shower? DH and I are planning a 2 or so week holiday over the time of Nathaniel's due date. I just want to get away and have a nice holiday where we can spend time together and relax. What do you have planned for your EDD? If you don't think you will be up to the bridal shower, than just be selfish and don't go. I know it goes against the grain to say that, but I think it is important that you put yourself and your emotions first at this time in your life. I am always worried that people will think I am rude etc if I don't want to talk about babies or go and see them...but really it isn't my problem and if they don't understand than that is their fault. I am trying to not care so much about what others think, and just do what is right for DH and myself. So take care and say no if you need to.

Well AF is a mystery for sure. It was so heavy when I woke up (TMI) and now nothing! No idea what is going on. I kind of hope it returns later today or tomorrow just so I can feel like it is happening. I really want to start TTCing properly this month. I was almost relieved when AF came on Saturday as I think doing a pregnancy test would have terrified me.