Catch up time.... Ok so it might be a long post... I hate rushing a good catch up.

Cycles in sync...... wow thats some powerful moon vibes going around the world. So thats why not many posts were in the first 2 days..... so many of us off crying and being emotional.

AJC..... we cant have everyone in sync.... it throws the month out.... this way if we have some of us 'O" and some of us AF then we pretty much have the month covered looking forward to BFP As for the pregnant ladies.... understand... understand....understand. I look..... ohhh and they seem to be everywhere... and just go off into another space. They obviously havent done a damn thing against me, I m thrilled for them infact I look at them and hope they have gotten over some crucial times. I m thrilled for them..... but incrediably sad at the same time...........

AJC... if you are "o" what the heck you doin here girl.... you should be dancin the night away

Katiegirl..... Soooo completely agree about putting yourself and DH first at the moment. I m also known at the moment for being just a tad blunt. ESPECIALLY with people who are constantly complaining about things that just dont rate. OHHH it get s me soooo mad. Again.. I want to give them my shoes... tell them to go for a walk and when they come back.... i have this visual image of slappin them so strongly accross the face and cursing at them..... I just dont have the time for it. My time is spent running my business, looking after my teenage boys... well supervising them anyway and taking care of myself and DH. I havent got time for petty b***s***..... oooops i m ranting.... shhhhhh

ANYWAY i agree with you. I believe that we will get through this by allowing ourselves to deal with each day as we need to and by allowing ourselves to focus on ourselves.

Anthonysmom...... same again.... if you dont think you cant do the bridal party then dont. if your not sure if you can do it then dont. If you know you can then great. Thats how I look at it and then if I do cope with it then I take the time out to pat myself on the back. I view things pretty simply now....... if they are a "friend" then they know what I ve just been through and am still going through.... if they are a true friend they would understand. If they arent a true friend then why the heck would I put myself out there to that degree in the first place.... told you I ve been a bit blunt lately.

Tempus..... Only brave on the good days.... or should i say good moments.... I ve cried more tears than i thought possible.

Bettyboop...... I think we will break out the drinkies and cheer any day now..... fingers and everything else crossed for you.

Nickster..... well ummm not everyone can do the FF tickler thing.... I stuffed mine up so bad i got stubborn and said... Dont bl..dy want one anyway... and now i refuse to have one...... ohhhh did i leave the stubborn side of me out of the picture so far.... dang... now i ve let it slip... yep... one stubborn girl here... So now I dont even go on the web site. I use a computer programe for my temping and I use my natural therapy peoples web site for temping as well because the information goes straight to them and then they work it out. My little computer programe cracks me up... each time i enter information it decides what it all means and then a pop up appears explaining it to me..... gotta love it.

Canary..... Baby shower..... OHHHH GOODNESS.... no chance..... no chance ..... NO chance... and what s more I wouldnt even consider the slightest possibility of putting myself through it. Maybe in a few years time .... maybe.... ohh but goodness..... no chance I would be strong enough for a baby shower yet. I think i would feel physically ill it would hurt that much..... Now as for the scrapbook... your welcome too it.... I ve been thinking a lot lately about DH... and relationships so much so that I do have a question in a sec for everyone.

Firstly though.... I m just doing a count up of who s got a visitor (AF)

Canary
Katiegirl
Tempus
Myself

I m sure i ve missed someone....

Well for me she is hot and cold.... and moody... ohhhhh GOODNESS......LOL

One thing I really would like to know.... I would love to know in a bit of detail how each of your DH are dealing with it all. I watch my DH constantly. The other night we both went up to bed. He had gone upstair earlier and was in my 16 year old sons room with him working on a jigsaw puzzle. When we got into bed he was trying to cheer me up by tickling me and laughing........ and we were just .... or really he was... joking around with me about all sorts of silly stuff.... and what do i do..... I burst into tears... Now up until that point most of the time he has been able to keep himself together, but this time he got up out of bed, got dressed and went to go back downstairs. I asked where he was going and he said "i can t take this right now so i m just going downstairs" That of course made me cry more and tell him i needed a cuddle. He kept asking me what was wrong and what i was crying about and i couldnt tell him..... I was just crying.

It made me think about it more though.... How is everyone else s DH coping and how do we keep our relationships strong through all this.

Well that is certainly enough for me..... Not my fault I had to do such a large post... its all of you who all of a sudden wanted to post and i had to catch up.