TTC after Miscarriage or Loss ~ March 08 #2

**mmteacher** · March 22nd, 2008, 04:25 AM

Hello,

My Dh and I were TTC for 15 months when we finally started Clomid in February...I wasn't sure if it would work or not but surprisingly, we got pregnant in the first month! I was elated and we were so happy that we decided to just tell everyone and hope for the best...Unfortunately the reason I am here is because about a week later, I started bleeding and ended up having an early miscarriage...I did not have a D & C and my bleeding has almost stopped so I am hoping I won't need one...I have another blood test Monday to see if my HCG dropped below 5 and if it did, then I guess I won't need a D & C. I am hoping I don't need one-I've been through enough already...So, this is very fresh for me and I still have a very empty feeling inside...It just feels like a broken heart.

My DH and I are going to be careful this month and wait until AF comes and then start the Clomid again and hope we get pregnant quickly again but with a sticky bean...I am glad to have found all of you and I hope that luck will come to all of us soon!

**tempus moriendi** · March 22nd, 2008, 09:30 AM

O has been accomplished, The Deed has been Done, now I'm just on the nest, waiting. Ugh. And trying REAL hard not to get my hopes up...yeah, right...

xmuginsx: congratulations! I'll be praying!

tina_k: sending cyberhug

Katiegirl: good luck, whatever you decide about seeing your friends

AJC: sorry about AF and good luck with your friends

Emmy-Lou: I"m sorry for your loss. best of luck and I'll keep you in my prayers

LizJessie: it could be implantation bleed or it could be your hormones going a little haywire. unfortunately, only time will tell, but I've got all my fingers crossed for you

pbstar: sending cyberhug

pash: you're so funny--mile high club
is parsi Indian?

fiona264: I had PCOS back in the 90's and my symptoms were my periods got more sparse and infrequent...I also had weight gain, but they found I also have a thyroid problem...but you're only 41--not running out of time--look at all the 40something celebs getting pregnant!

Mel A: good luck with TTC

bettyboop: I"m praying very hard for you

danielsgirl1113: keeping fingers crossed

mmteacher: I'm so sorry for your loss. I'll keep you in my prayers and best of luck TTC

**Mel A** · March 22nd, 2008, 09:46 AM

mmteacher
I feel for you, a new m/c after so long, is a feeling that can't be described. You will be in my heart. I found it helpful to share the details with people that i trusted. It helped me grieve.

I then latched on the (with all my claws) to the fact that I could get pregnant.

Also I realised that I had lots of negative and distructive thoughts running through my head; resentment for those that held their BFP. Those who have babies even those that look like they might be able to get pregnant. So as part of this difficult journey, I now chosen to beleive that my body knows what it's doing. (even if it needs some help to get started) If I had/have a m/c then it was because my body knew that something wasn't right. It is protecting me from more pain and ensuring my life when i do have a baby will be a special one.

Hope reading this helps a little.

Mel

PS. whatching the notebook helped. Sobbing for a good hour.

Magda · March 22nd, 2008, 11:04 AM

Hi ladies,

Hope everyone is having a good day today.

Canary: Have a wonderful trip, Happy Easter.

Jodsan: Thanks.

back at ya hun.

Betthyboop: I also know what you mean about time running out I'm trying not to stress out. GL with op next week.

MmTeacher: Welcome and I am so sorry for your loss. You have come to the right place for support.

TM: Good luck

to you too.

As for me I am now 7dpo and I am trying to stay calm and not get my hopes up. And I use the term "trying" loosely because it is very hard. Anyways by the time I realized that I had o'd (a few days after the fact) I had BD'd that wed and o'd on fri (sorry if tmi) so I am really hoping.

Anyways, wishing you all lovely ladies a very Happy Easter.