Two week wait support #5

[Cieras mummy]

Hi all,
I am not up with all of the shortcuts for explanations, nor am I using Ov prediction kits.
I had a mc in Feb/March and am waiting with bated breath for a BFP this month.
It has been such a long and turbulent road for me and DH. 2yrs+ TTC, then when that BFP appeared just to be taken away, well I was heart broken. SO was DH but he copes with things in a different way than what I do.
I am currently about 6DPO so am well into my . Ever since the day after OV I have been feeling very seedy and ill. This has happened before and I was told by FS that it was just natures way of playing mind games with me, and that it just showed that I had ovulated well????
So I am due for AF on 27th April and I am so scared of what might come. I guess that the next week and a half are going to be the longest ones of all. What am I going to do if I get a BFN again and have to deal with AF. I feel so deflated. Like there is no point to even trying any more. I do have a beautiful DD 3.5 and she is the light of my life, but the yearning inside of me for another baby just wont die down.
Sorry for the depressing long post. I just have no where else to turn anymore. It is like no one understands how hard it is.....
Doesnt help when BFF anounced that she is expecting 3rd (unplanned) baby, 3 weeks after I would have been due.....
I ask everyone "HOW MUCH ARE WE SUPPOSED TO DEAL WITH???"
Good luch :goodluck2:to all of us who are in the process of TWW. I hope that the elusive makes everyone happy.
To those who are having to deal with AF...I am so sorry...I know exactly what it is like. Life is just so unfair...
And lastly to everyone who has gotten the mirraculous BFP this month....
Thanks for listening....
Kim